no title is fitting

......."perhaps nothing is made.perhaps it simply is, has been, will always be there."

I found my self reading a book, in this bok profound understandings of unclear thoughts I've been having, im not bothered, confused, or claiming to be clear or inlightend. It was, it is, and always will be the way it is. Lately, well past few weeks i felt as if i put into words the way I've been feeling about everything for a while. Initially I thought of it as accepting things, thats not even it. The first verbal acknowladgement we decided on was "it is what it is." true but the thought it self is trying to put into words that is , has been, and allways will be indescribeable. Its not an emotion driven group of words, because its not an emotion, nor is ita gut feeling. to me its the lack of emotion and lack of feeling(i have a soul). example- I picked up a picture sitting on my desk of me and some one i was once close to, i stared at it for something around twenty mins. I reflected on past experiences hen every once and a while I'd come back to present time standing in my room holding a picture of a person and i , that i was once close to, going back and fourth from past experience to present. at the end of the twenty mins i realized i felt no emotinion the entire time, no happiness no sadness. as the picture slipped out of my fingers and fell to floor. At first i believed this to be acceptance? acceptance of what? a few days later i was speaking with a friend who seemed very upset and attempted to explain my new found thought process i did not even completely understand. Strangely enough he got it and we labled it as " it is what it is" . That same friend let me borrow the book i found my self reading. literally same thought diferent words same instance of a man staring at a picture of some one he was once close to and him. " perhaps nothing is made. perhaps it simply is, has been, will always be there"





it is what it is